Yoga camp and Meditating

As a last minute plan, Eva, Fred, Gretchen and I went to the Sivananda Yoga camp for a Yoga class and dinner. It was simply delightful.
http://www.sivananda.org/camp/english/intro_en.html

I've been meaning to go for a long time and this was my first time. I feel sore from the 2 hour class. Both the class and the dinner were basic and wonderful.

There was a ceremony to write down the things we want to release and things we want to have manifested and burnt the papers. It was at the home of the lady who leads our meditation group.

I felt a bit depressed and stressed in the last days. But I feel so much better after the yoga class.

My friend her daughter and her grand-son came for lunch and had a hectic but delightful time.

Addicted to tedtalks

After doing all that shopping and planning, Christmas dinner turned out to be real simple. My friend who was supposed to concoct the dinner together got sick so I dropped off some pepto-bismol and odd things. My mom did not feel good so she ended up having rice porridge and soya sauce for dinner. A new friend accompanied me to the Christmas mass at the Notre-Dame basillica. He was fidgeting and I could understand why. The priest had a thick accent and spoke fast and mumbled French. Plus the accoustic in the church was such that there was an echo effect. In other words, it was really hard to understand what he was saying. No wonder of the family of 12 behind us, there were 3 - mother and her 2 kids on either side of her laps - were snoring all the way. The grandma's giant hips were hitting my new friends head every time she moved. It was rather entertaining. We had a real simple dinner and a great conversation.

I have a new addiction - Tedtalks. I watched the one on 100$ computer, Nicholas Negroponte, and I'm grateful to all other presenters, Al Gore, Malcolm Gladwell and especially Gregory Colbert of Ashes and Snow.

I cannot wait to watch all of them. Each one is inspiring and compelling in so many different ways. I feel enormously blessed to be living in this time period.

http://www.ted.com/tedtalks

Fundraiser and the official announcement

The fundraiser was a success. We had room full of people. The presentations and piano performances were outstanding and food was warm, original and joyful. It took a lot of work but this time, it did not feel like work.

About the announcement - I am going to Korea to work for a good while - the expected date is June 2007. It was Janet - a lady who came all the way from Daegu, Korea to let me know about this opportunity. Since I already have attempted to go back in 1992 and failed, I thought that it was not for me.

Since I have decided, I feel hopeful, excited and joyous. Mom, Grandma and Aunt are all very excited about it too. I'll need to get rid of lots of things and ship some things. All seems right and unreal at the same time.

Fundraiser

Results fundraiser is coming along. As before I wonder if I could have done more, been some other way to make a resounding success. Maybe this is what it looks like when your prayers are heard. It is a resounding success in Calgary and Ottawa. Even in Micro Credit, now it is the playground for Gates, Buffett and Omydiar. I made a slide show of 20 years history of Results Canada/Montreal. It really went by fast.

New Me

8 months after my birthday - I finally went for the color/haircut using the gift certificate from birthday present. I was a bit apprehensive at first but I came out feeling like a million bucks.

Here's the new look - thanks to my dear friend who came with me to consult the color and hair person with what look we're shooting for.

Back at home with some homework to do

I've been back and heard this amazing news that my dead beat uncle in Korea may be getting a pension. Auntie declared that would be her independence from him. She'll definitely leave her dead beat brother and move out with or without grandma depending on uncle number1's reaction. If he withdraws support by reclaiming his pension then granma can go with him - as is customary in Korea for eldest son to take care of parents in their old age. If he takes the money and refuses to take care of granma then she'll move with granma and live on her support from government and request some help from the 3 uncles. This was something I wanted but was impossible to even want but now it is miraculously happening.

I'm so incredibly impressed by her. In fact, she impresses me more than anyone alive on the planet today.

I had the most spectacular day off in Herring Cove. My dear friend invited me to stay with her and I happily accepted. Her place has the most amazing view of ocean in action. Life is most interesting since I have been on this sabbatical. Or I never took time to examine how miraculous life can be.

Some pictures - Prez Clinton at the Montreal Millenium Conference 2006. Prof. Yunus at MC Summit and views from Herring Cove.

Wow - what a month it's been so far

The Millennium conference was a complete success and there were 5 people extra showed up just because I mentioned it. I am so privileged to live in this time and age.

The weekend in SF was so eye-opening as well. This was the biggest group of successful people that I can think of. Yet, they don't seem to know half of what I know in terms of the state of the world and what can be done.

Micro-credit Summit - there were so many new success stories plus Prof. Yunus with the Nobel Prize Winning stature, it was almost overwhelming. I'm so proud to be in the company of those naive people - who just did not know enough that it was impossible. So it makes sense that Power and Contribution course is designed around the impossible promise.

I can't wait to start the work book, read the new book about MC - pathways out of poverty, to get to the bottom of tax issues about MC on next week.

Presentations

I gave one presentation in a university and 2 others to high school students/teachers in the last 4 days. I was cut off in the middle on the one at the university and that I had a hard time getting over it. It was rude but I did get an apology. The high school ones were delightful. I met many young visionaries with fresh, innovative projects to mobilize the public. I was disappointed in the end because, they all wanted to do exactly the same things - paper recycle, compost but nothing outside of the school environment.

But I met a couple of very bright young kids and I was inspired at the idea of becoming a teacher.

I realize that I have no fear being in the front of a group - and someone told me that is half the battle.

Never done before

I went to Aquadome and there must have been a thousand little screaming kids there. I went to Village des Valeurs. I could not pick anything but found a warm long skirt for my aunt. So I can say I did 2 things I've never done before.

Last 2 days, I hung out with my friend Eva. I also heard that there were some lay-offs at where I used to work. It was sad but I wasn't surprised. I still think I made the right decision to bust out and live my life to the fullest rather than waiting for an axe to fall. My mother agrees. My aunt appreciates me for not losing my ability to laugh till it hurts.

Busy couple of weeks are coming up and I'm excited -excited about workshops I'll be giving, conferences I'll be attending and visiting my friend in Halifax.

Busy day

Demand for me is coming from all directions. I met with 2 other accomplished strong willed women for brunch. They are masters in their domain and as we agree and disagree I can see that gods in us are very much alive and expressive.

Then I had a call with the McGill people about the workshop this Saturday. It came together rather interestingly.

Then a friend called to see if I was willing to show her some yoga movements. Then another friend called to see if I can be with her to go to the small claims court for her dispute with her dentist.

Then I had a fundraiser planning call.

Ballet class was great - after all this, but I must be careful with my weak knee.

This dark Halloween night is turning out to be not as sleepy as other nights.

Choosing

I had one of the most powerful excercises done in my seminar and it is all about choosing. I had that happen when I did the Forum - and chose my Dad exactly as he is and exactly as he was not and our relationship completely shifted then. It was truly miraculous when that happened. In my seminar, we were to write down all that we haven't chosen in our lives and choose all each day. I don't know if that is why but this time, we are putting together the Fundraiser at the last minute and so far - no struggle and effort. No making wrong. My unreasonable request to be in daily communication with the 2 other people got accepted without a peep.

So I'm excited without being nervouse and crazy. It may be also that I let that go.

I'm in demand, from within and from outside - will be doing a workshop at McGill, Learning for sustainable future. Then I'm in the Montreal Millenium Conference. Then off the Power and Contribution in SF then off to Halifax from there. Then I'm attending a conference for tax consultant for NGO for transferring money outside of Canada.

New possibility

I had an interview this morning. It was interesting and the people I met seemed earnest and serious. I can see that there's definite mood shift in me. I don't have so much angst and nervousness.

I love the seminar I'm in - Living passionately and bringing the love of the game to everything we do. It just gives me calmness and possibility without any change in circumstances.

It would be great to work and be passionate about my work again.

Dreams

I had a dream that I took a thorn (unusual shape and size) out of my body. It was thick and had a color and texture of a red brick but shaped like a branch with some motif on it. It was painful to take it out but felt really good once it was out.

I also had a dream that I moved into a new house. Brand-new freshly painted and was very bright.

This is something - not really a dream but I saw and felt it while meditating in my yoga class. I have been given this huge peach, it was so big that I could not put my arms around it.

I also had a dream that I started to work for OZ.

Now - in a live state, my new unlikely friend turns out to have so much in common with me. Grandma whose husband is in Sudan being an agricultural consultant. She is actually the first person to let me know that Prof. Yunus was awared the Nobel Peace Prize. I'll have to laminate the picture I took with him.

Talking with 5 women

I had a dinner/meeting with 5 women. 3 I know well and 2 I know very little. It turned out to be most interesting and it is incredible how people with like mind find each other. I'm a believer in the law of attraction.

I heard the good news that Prof. Mohammad Yunus won the Nobel Peace Prize. When my grandma heard the news she thought it wasn't fair that he got something and I did not get anything - another falling down from my chair laughing moment.

I went to lunch and yoga class with my old and dearest friend. We never seem to have enough time to say everything - thank god for Skype so that we can catch up whenever.

I'm including some pictures from the Sushi Restaurent aquarium - Nemo and Dory.

Harvest Moon

I must have gotton off it. I got the cheque in the mail - one I thought I'd have to wait till november. So Mom and I went out to celebrate. Back in Korea, the whole family got together to celebrate the Choo Suk - Korean equivalent of Thanksgiving - they happened to coincide this year. I have so much to be thankful for. From the movie Secret, I started listing the names of the people I feel grateful for having in my life and so far I'm at 94.
I took 2 pictures of the Harvest moon - it looked sublime.

Venise-en-Quebec

Mom wanted to get away to see the fall trees - and she's not keen on walking a lot. On Thursday a friend of mine informed me that she's renting a cottage by a lake and she was willing to bring us back an forth. I always wanted to have a cottage by water and wanted to know what it would be like to live in one so I got mom to agree and invited a couple of friends - the one who came ended up being charge of all 7 meals. The lake was fabulous. I got to see the sunny day and a rainy, windy day and water looked very different. We ended up playing 2 rounds of Scrabbles (Mom did quite well), 2 rounds of French version of Life (Getting married, having kids, buying house, losing money and facing other life obstacles etc.). And watched 3 movies. Food was also a major source of preoccupation.

Kindered Spirits

I met with 2 people who are just as passionate about creating new world of health, education and equity. (I learned from watching " The Secret" the movie - that it is better to be for something than against something). The movie was so great - I never knew that the technology existed to pay and watch a movie on line.

Manon will go to Tanzania to work with the orphans there. Jacques will bring solar oven to dry fruits so that they can start their own small business. I'm getting clearer - I want to be part of the task force to enroll 2.2 M people to give 1$/day till the Micro Finance becomes available to all. I was resigned about finding billionaires. However I recently heard of 2 people who personally know a billionair and some one who knows of one.

I was so happy to meet people who are re-arranging their life/lifestyle to make a maximum difference and take their dreams off the shelf and running with them.

Long overdue evening out dancing

I found out there's something I'm good at. Twist. I was out with 4 fabulous gals at a Freddie James - Singer/dancer/comedian extraordinaire concert. Of all the Barbie and Paris look-alike gals, who does Freddie pick to do a Twist demo on the stage? Me! It was surprising but I thought heck I enjoy dancing and who cares who's watching. As I was dancing, Freddie's eyes were getting bigger and bigger. And later at the ladies, gals lining up all gave me smiles and taps on my shoulder saying my twist was "really good". Too bad no camera or video camera was rolling. Eliz was saying "You should have seen yourself".

So I became instant celebrity for about 5 minutes. It was fun. Maybe I can add that on my CV.
This washed away some of the stress and pissy mood I was in. So today is a new day with no mistakes in it - famous line from Anne of Green Gables.

Back to sabbatical

It was intense 1 week but is over. John was right. It seems they won't budge until I do a blow out. It was an interesting experience anyways. Including fetching copper wire for an antenna and looking for elastic bands to keep the device together - real high tech stuff.

There's a new addition for my green pottery collection - I got them from SF. Once I got them in SF but gave away as a gift and I thought I should have gotton more. The persimmon things. So I was happy to track down in SF this time.

Power and Contribution and new job

Power and contribution was in some ways brutal but most humbling and effective. The level of honesty was unbelievable and only so that we can start a strong and clean foundation of integrity. I've been depressed about this course. This course is about making the difference in the world, creating the impossible promise and fulfilling them. Obviously I'm not the right person. As it turns out - all the people in the course were going through some degree of this despair. Some were too indifferent to even notice the dispair. But at some point this promise will take over our lives and become the context for all we do. I got a massive headache - must have been a giant identity attack.

SF was beautiful - especially the hotel. I also had an honor of attending an unexpected birthday party of a friend and 50 of his close family members - it was overwhelming but I could see they all so loved each other.

Busy Events - Happy ones

Yesterday, after 5 months the collection for the soccer uniform was completed. This was only done in Pierrefonds but maybe next year if there's more demand and if shipping cost can be donated, we could do Montreal-wide collection.

Today, I was at a press conference for the Millenium Promises by the City of Montreal. Yes I was very skeptical but I was really surprised by the leadership plus all the celeb muscles who showed up there. I also got to see the friend with the looooong poney tail - who went Hey it's da sunnie - on top of her lungs in the company of Belinda Stronach, Mayor Tremblay, Nathalie Simard, Patrick Huard and oodles of journalists swarming all over the place.

They are putting on a big conference on Nov 9th with Prez Clinton, Jeff Sachs, Craig Keilburger and several people to let the ordinary people know of the progress of MDG's and to launch Bednet project and inviting Corporations and NGOS as well as ordinary citizens (3000 people).

I got to shake hands with the Organizer, Daniel Germain - Founder of "Club des petits dejeuners du Quebec", the back bone and the shaker of the bold project.

Mayor was speaking about projects to join twin cities in all aspects of development, with the World Bank.

Anyways, I was really interested to see the new momentum of the MDG's power that infiltrated the Quebec's Psyche.

Why aren't they calling me?????

Well I have been waiting for the people to call me about the job where I had 4 interviews (1 phone 3 face-to-face). Apparently it is normal to do 5-6 interviews these days. As one of my old co-worker used to say "what a gal to do?"

In the meantime, I am continuing my yoga classes and found I lost another pound this morning. Plus, I'm learning the history of Korea. The culture, and discipline that was there before Buddism arrived. It is fascinating. I know so little but the education system also suppressed that part of history in general in Korea.

I like feeling the energy between my hands - this means my mind is calm enough to focus on the present rather than regretting the past and worrying about the future.

The long lost friend was telling me how she got to the top of the corporate ladder and then she also decided to quit. She did not like the fact that she had to hand over her life to the company and the demand of young kids, aging mother and career was too much and she felt completely cornered. She quit. I'm sure that took a lot of courage. She then started to buy properties so she basically manages properties and makes more money now then ever before - and she says she made good money. Her husband also left his damanding position and took on less demanding role. They are wise and lucky I must say.

There's another funny granma story. She doesn't want to use the chamber pot in front of TV. Why? because she's concerned that people in TV are watching her. I almost fell from my chair when I heard it, laughing hysterically.

Money bug and Boston trip

Auntie keeps assuring me that the money bug is staying put with her. Everytime she opens the sliding door it appears. So things are looking good.

Boston trip was fabulous. I went to the Fogg museum, the Science Museum, The Peabody museum and of course the Museum of Fine Arts.

Plus we had some fabulous meals, went sailing one afternoon and were on the swan boat.

Friday - arriving and dinner at China town - watched Gendarme à New York but fell asleep before finishing the movie.

Saturday - Fogg art museum, Lunch, Sailing, Profiterol and Cappucino then an excellent 3 course meal at this tiny Bistro -but this was the Restaurent week so they had special menu.

Sunday - Had breakfast with Alan then explored on my own. Went through Prudential, Boyleston shopping mall. Then to the Science Museum where they display real human bodies http://www.mos.org/bodyworlds This was very interesting and not as scary as I thougt.

Jenny and Alan had 20 + guests for BBQ feast. Then Jenny had to work and I finished the Portuguese Irregular Verbs. It was very funny.

Monday - Went for "American in Paris" exibit at the Museum of fine arts then off to Peabody museum for Pictures from Pusan during the Korean War. Since this museum was connected to the Natural History Museum I got to see the Glass Flowers as well. Went to Korean Galbi dinner at Koreana.

Tuesday came back to Montreal with Jenny and Wednes day a.m. I had another interview. Thursday - we, Jenny, Rosalba and I have found Eva - who we've been looking for last 3 years. It's been a productive week.

Visiting Jenny - in my dream + Dahn Goon history

In my dream, I was visiting Jenny. It was somewhere I was supposed to dress up - like a fancy party. I am also supposed to pack a swim suit because there's a facility where we could go for a swim. This is a recurring dream - about some of us going for a swim. I even remember this place where there's a 3 layers of swimming pools that I have seen in my other previous dreams.

I am just making sure I packed all the right things and also making sure I'm not an embarrassment because of my slowness. I guess that's been my concern all my life trying to catch up but never being able to.

In my life - in the awake state, I got this book as a gift from the Dahn Yoga place. In it, it talks about the ancient Korean history and how important it is for us to learn that history since as the story of Abraham and Isaac, Kain and Abel, Adam and Eve, it is critical for us to understand the history/myth of that life correctly as the philosophical and moral back bone of our lives.

I only know that my maternal great-grand father was the last head of the original Korean religion called Dae Jong Gyo (The great religion). The book was about the root of our history and religion of the Korean people. It was inspiring, made much sense. However I'm not too convinced that having 100 million people practicing Dan Hak will really bring about the all harmonious world. Then again it may not be about fixing the world but rather awakening and providing opportunities for those people to make a difference.

But I am certainly glad to find that what my great-grand father was teaching is on the revival after 2000 years of sleep and oblivion.

More dreams

I had a dream that Aunt and I are moving into a house that needs a lot of work but thankfully the guys - who are renting it to us are willing to fix it to our specification.

I also had a dream where I'm folding papers next to Bill Gates. He and I are doing the same task of folding papers. And this other guy is telling me that I can have my own Black Berry device - and I'm thinking, I haven't been hired and they want me to have a device already?

I also had this recurring theme in one of my other dreams - where I know I have a university degree but somehow I ended up back in high school and although it is something I already learned I'm having a hard time adjusting and relearning. This time finally someone is telling me that I no longer have to re-learn since I already graduated and have a higher education.

This was a busy morning.

More dreams

I had two interesting dreams lately. One was that I received a gift of jewelry - bracelet with Amethyst in the middle like an eye then some colorless -chrystals on either side. I took it but wasn't sure If this meant more pay back. In my dream I wondered if this was a good thing or not.

Another dream was that there's a warning that there's a racoon on the loose who is destroying the pumpkin leaves. I saw that he was devouring them but what I was seeing was a giant orange pumpkin that is hung and I was to protect it from the racoon.

Both seem like a good omen - jewels and giant orange pumpkin.

Back to sabbatical

I'm done with a task that took 54 hours to complete - it was estimated to be about 16 hours would be enough. In general, it took about 3 hours per month so I don't feel I was a slug.

Sorting/attaching to the right statements/entering in the computer.

Now I'm waiting to hear from this nice company and applied to another tech place a good friend of mine gave me the lead for. Also this Anthony Hopkins look-alike person called me - from England. He was visiting his parents so it took a while for him to call me. He sounds good and we'll meet next week some time.

The temperature shot down and I wonder if this is the beginning of the end of the summer -- sigh. I want to go to see Jenny in Boston.

Heck I need to study for my driving theory test next week.

Work and Play

As I have been somewhat working and looking into going back to work full time, I wonder what I've been doing with all of my free time.

Auntie's being the super human as usual. In fact, she sent me and mom summer shirts and excercise pants. She tells me that she's seen money bugs in numerous occasions and it should be a good luck sign for me. I believe her.

I went to St-Lazarre and spent the afternoon meditating by the pool side. It was just fabulous.

Another wonderful summer weekend is over and a few more in store. Must plan carefully.

Heavenly weekend

I learnt that Auntie's situation is somewhat controlled with the tenant and there's been some kind of equilibrium reached. His bullying found its limits with the solidarity of women friends as well. I'm forever grateful and admire the courage and strength of auntie.

Friday evening: unbelievable Karaoke session - with so much gusto, variety and talent. It was so satisfying.

Saturday evening: unbelievable Jazz ballet performance at the parc. The music, choreography and the surrounding scenary all were just amazing. The fountain changed the color once in a while and it was just the perfect summer night performance, sexy, romantic, humourous and original. The mango, strawberry, pineable hot pepper ice cream was just wonderful. But I realize I miss Adam and two other friends who moved away. I wonder if that's why the area of my heart chakra hurts.

Sunday: went for amazing brunch and went for a walk on Mt St. Bruno. We got to meet a turtle size of a mid-size frying pan. It was a surprise. Apprently it is a good omen. I also found a 4 leaved clover - I started to think I was losing touch.

So far, this has been an excellent weekend.

Sequal to Super Auntie

The tenant from hell was planning to make a few bucks by building some pic-nic sites (mostly for drinking and fighting rather) with another shady charactor. Wednesday with Policemen insisting all neibours to watch the sites were taken down.

Stories from Korea are sometimes more unreal than dramas on TV. I guess I should be grateful that the war did not happen in Korea at least.

Do I have the power to make something happen or am I just an observer and a coward? I feel like a fake sometimes. But where is the court?

Super Auntie

As the violent neibour of my aunt in Korea has been acting up lately, I had a couple of sleepless nights. He is such a bully he instills fear in all the people in the neibourhood and even the officials stand by and let him get away with breaking laws and threatening the people in the neibourhood.

I think Auntie is fed up with everyones, complete cowardice behavior and hiding behind their fears, so she wrote the request to the minister's website. So all of the misbehavior of everyone is in public domain without naming names. I feel so amazed at her courage and of course, their response was immediate. Officials called and visited all day. I do fear for her safety but then again the bully does what he feels like doing anyways and it won't help to let him get away forever bullying.

I pray that Archangel Michael protects her with iron armours and other angels 24/7.

I'm blessed to have friends who are so fun to be with and have generous, loving sprits. I found out again at the Birthday parties of my 2 sisters.

Encouraged

I have been encouraged lately. One of the reason was that I got a call from this technology place asking for a phone interview. It looks like they want the 2nd interview but that needs to be confirmed next week. Interview fairy -the one who trained me for hours - did a wonderful job. Also when I share even about my insecurities and even "failures" people seem to light up.

One woman yesterday told me that "Never underestimate you or your words", with teary eyes. Someone else said one of my quality was "cheerful personality". I felt lighter.

I found out HSP Dahn yoga has the reputation for being "Landmark for the body". I am not surprised. I feel rejuvenated these days. So, I'm expecting wonderful miracles to come my way.

Reflections and messages

I have been discouraged lately. It felt like I was kicked in the stomach a couple of times. I went to do my first theory course for driving and It wasn't bad. I got a call from JC and met him at a park. As I mentioned that I have a phone interview he started to prepare me in almost millitaristic fashion. I started to feel better as he got on with the logical explanation of what qualities I have and how they are valuable.

So, I'm ready for the interview and I felt relieved. In the evening I was thinking about the MC foundation project. I really did not have any handle on how I could go about finding the billionaire or the mega fundraiser. I felt suppressed. Then I remembered the presentation of John Hatch about getting 2.2 M people to give $1 a day. Then I felt lit up. It also made sense to me to get a project where an average person could participate and enroll others to make a huge difference. So I felt so much relief and thought I could stand for being part of that project.

I know that I can own and enroll others in that conversation.
So I feel light.

I had spoken with Ileana and Aunt - seems to feel much lighter today. What a lucky person I am.

Dream and injury

During the conference about a week ago, I had this dream that someone brought a puppy to me. I was concerned that this was going to be very distracting running around and barking. But when the puppy was put on the floor, it just spread its 4 legs and would not move. I felt bad for it and picked it up but was very weak.

On my way home by bus from Ottawa, I stood up to retrieve something from the over-head compartment and I heard this loud click around one of my knees and I was forced to sit down. I was in shock and was not sure if my left knee would support my weight. I managed to get out and massaged my knee and was able to walk home with my back pack but it just wasn't feeling right.

I went to HSP center to do some long overdue excercise and Crystal gave healing on my knee. After about an hour I could feel that it's about 60% back to how it was before. I could not move my foot left and right without feeling eerie discomfort but now I could. I still have problem bending all the way.

But the information from the injury is like - someone just knocked my knee - like one of the gangsters to collect the money owed.

I spoke with aunt in Korea. She tells me that students are not allowed to give salute to Korean flag anymore. It felt like being knocked off my knee as well. She's having trouble with the carpenter again. She doesn't need things but she says she needs me. I'm mentally preparing for that eventuality.

But it was so nice to come home to loving friends and mom.

There seems to be a definite water change happening - my originating circle and the future conversation.

Results conference

I was at the Results conference for the last week. It was fabulous in many ways and exhausting. There was a point I could not handle one more word coming out of somebody's mouth. It is work to listen to people.

I like the fact that there will be emphasis and funding for expansion. I like the new Model for fundraising - although it sounds tad manipulative. But Oklahoma group went from 12-15K to 50k and they are experimenting with Seattle, Denver and Houston.

I would very much like to be in that experiment.

Jim Kim was fabulous speaker and so was Barbara - the executive director. It is amazing to see so many staff.

North Korea and Enron guy

The major news items yesterday evening and today are the North Korea's missile testing and Ken Lay (Former Enron CEO) dying of heart attack.

The current South Korean government that's been acting pretty much like a pump that sucked the wealth out of South Korea to pour it down Kim's pocket is now losing ground everywhere. The physical attack for the potential opposition leader was a last cry, which of course, acted against its interest.

So Kim will, within a year, lose the abundant supply of wealth and I guess he wanted more from US, since it has more money. This is such a young, bratty spoiled behavior and South Korean leaders made it much worse by giving it what it asked for and more in the last few years.

Ken - I always wondered how he was able to keep the smile, smurk, arrogant confidence even with hand-cuffs on - like who are these monkeys who don't recognize his importance. I guess he finally realized he will go to jail, no matter whose shoulders he's been rubbing with in the past. So died at 64 years old. Reminds me of Tolstoy's "What men live by". Men don't know what they need.

More home improvement

Since I moved in to this appartment 5 years ago, I had a long bed sheet hanging on this bottom window. I finally took that down and covered it with papers with leaves motif. It looks so much nicer. I feel complete. I still want to paint and put in that last light fixture but I don't know when I will.

This paper has that Korean paper sliding door look and I feel cozy and it looks clean.

Yesterday, I ran into this couple who in my book has the most perfect relationship. The husband saw me first and almost did not recognize me. He said I looked great. The wife and I talked about the "foundation project. Then I was shoe shopping (got cute green shoes) and had some Italian Ice cream with a good friend. The weather was just so perfect. Happiness can be so simple.

Victory - health front

HSP yoga is paying off. I lost 3 lbs. Just from doing the intestine exercise. I did not expect it. Along with a sense of cleansing myself I feel more confident because I now have tools to make myself better anywhere, and I don't need to depend on pills or some other mysterious mixture.

Someone is tempting me to go to Korea or Dubai. I'm intrigued and wonder about it.

I also heard the rumour that Gates are planning to invest in Micro Finance.

My psychic told me that I'm looking for 3 in one deal - money, career and relationship. It's suppose to come together in the cookie cutter way - in very clear shape and size.

Two dreams:
Kind of a warning: The guy will behave with me exactly as he has been doing with his other girlfriends.

I'm in NY and looking for old friend. She seems to be alone with the child - her husband seems absent.

Explore the unknown

After waiting for a month and half for half hour phone meeting, finally it was done yesterday - about the foundation. It was discouraging and encouraging at the same time. It was enough to say no way not for me but for some reason I was willing to explore further. He was saying to be really worthwhile, the foundation should be able to raise about 4M per year after a couple of years of operation. Which means we need a mean sugar daddy/momma or someone who can raise millions of dollars without upfront salary promise OR both. So Cathy and I will explore who could be these people. Once we locate, he is willing to meet with them.

So I'm left with where will I generate income for myself? I did apply for this position found almost accidentally. I was a reference for someone applying for the company and at the end I asked about me and she said please send your CV. So I did. We shall see.

I enjoy my HSP yoga classes. I had a private lesson yesterday, because nobody else showed up, and I had this exercise to open my heart chakra and it still hurts.

Philanthropy

There was this big announcement that the 2nd richest man in the world will give most of his money to the foundation run by the richest mand in the world. I have new faith in humanity and the announcement included that a fraction of their wealth like 6 billion could eradicate Malaria.

I had a call with my partner for the big project in Calgary. It feels a bit more real now -- still in the stage of remember/forget.

I feel there are right signs from the Universe like the announcement above. Besides auntie will be praying with the special rosary.

Reference to end of measurement of time

I found the following comment in a book and and it is oddly similar to the dream I had about "The end of time".

"I thought of the Mayan calendar, which ends in 2012. Many people believe that this signals a coming of apocalypse. Yet the angels had always assured me that 2012 was the end of the measurement of time...not the end of time itself. The angels said that wearing watches and using calendars kept us locked in the third dimensional illusion of time. When we stopped measuring time mechanically, all seeming limitations would be lifted for us. We'd be able to re-access our naturally miraculous powers."

Hmmm. Interesting.

Impossible Promise

I was on the call with other Power and Contribution participants. There was a lady who expressed exactly what I'm going through and was relived to know that I'm not alone.

It is a terrifying experience to pursue what is your dream to the degree that we're willing to explore.

I had a call with someone on my team for Partnership Community coach this morning. We each saw something that wasn't available before and it was uplifting to be supported and to support another. This was the definition of play - give and take with no intent. That was what we did and just shifted a whole thing around. Loving this.

Chi and dream

The rythm dance teacher checked my chi and as initially diagnosed, the chi in my stomach area seems pretty blocked. Slight touch made me scream. Also I felt sharp pain all over my abdomen. She says because I started exercising, I would initially feel more pain because the cells are now awake to feel it. I introduced Rafika to the class and we had fun giggling through the class. Looking through their web site, I was impressed to find how this movement dahn yoga all over the world and apprently it could give you lots of energy and motivation after training for some time. I cannot wait.

I had a dream that where I used to work was in shambles. There was garbage everywhere and could not see people. I found, by accident, that there's a small package destined to me but someone wanted to borrow it so I let it go.

When I had a conversation with Ileana in 2004, I was willing to start from zero but not willing to be dragged down with anyone. So here I am willing to start from zero. This could possibly mean letting go of all I know, what I feel and think I'm good at.

The package that I sent to Aunt was received. As usual, Granma hijacked items that were not destined for her, like the rosary I got with pictures on both side of each beads. I meant for Aunt to have it since she dreamt of it 10 years ago. Of course, I know that this happens every single time but I keep forgetting. When will I ever learn?

More strange dream

After a 3 hour dancing on the Funky town disco floor, I had fallen asleep like a brick. It was fun and 2 friends who never went before said that they had fun and want to go back.

So in the morning, I had this dream that I was invited to a dinner put on by Angelina Jolie. She was cooking something real simple - like hot chicken sandwich and was busy serving, eating and wanted to hear about the fundraising project. I'm trying hard to keep her attention and was frustrated and annoyed that I could not get it, because there were about 12 others who wanted the same thing. She did however wrote down everything that I said on a small notebook. She seemed interested.

Fundraising

I was at this fundraising workshop all day today, part of the Summer session put on by Management and community development department of the Concordia University.

We had a diverse group of people from Hockey, Hatian orphanage, Cancer patient support, etc.

It was interesting to find out that we are doing mostly the right thing except for the part of acknowledging and upgrading donors. I was frightened at the thought of being the fundraiser day in and day out as a job. I wasn't sure if I could handle it. But then that is where I want to be powerful and effective. Because that would be the key to the kingdom. Maybe this is just a young conversation to be upgraded.

Well the session was animated and not a second was dull. The group was dynamic and no sappy noise was to be found.

I'm empowered to go back to the basics. Great letter, great phone call, have a meeting and have a powerful ask.

The job of the fundraiser is to acknowledge and cultivate. Always to have 7 ways to thank them. I'm going to be that person.

Airtime problem

I've been impatient with those who need to talk. Although what they say is mostly interesting I sometimes want to hear what other people have to say or just not hear the same voice for too long. Is this a disease of some kind?

The story with uncle's estranged family is getting more and more misterious. Now his estrange wife has completely lost credibility and we now suspect any of her story is true.

Life can be more incredible then drama sometimes.
I should dig into that driving manual.

Itching to make money

I registered for this Gi-gong, Korean dance/percussion excercise class today. For a few minutes, I thought it would be nice to become an instructor for something like this. Teach 3 days a week and do what I feel like for the rest of the week.

Given I have this lead for a job in "Technology", by thoughtful ex co-workers who I appreciate very much, as I was looking through some beautiful summer dresses I'm thinking - hmm, maybe I should start working again so that I can become a fearless consumer. I am tempted and losing patience.

When I called Alex last time his voice sounded all but choked and the sound came out all stressed. So I said we should do the call another time. Now I'm kind of stuck and don't want to face that again.

How do people keep on when there are not enough encouragement? I miss my partner in crime - Cathy.

I'll request the call to be delayed for when Cathy comes back in town and that she can be with us.

More dreams

Yesterday I had a dream that rain storms are coming and that the water is reaching the windows. I had to rescue everyone out of the house first then I left.

This morning I had a dream that I was working at this all French technology company. People were not friendly and although they say it is a "technology" company, what they cared about more was colors, looks, and esthetics. Funny I got a lead for a job at a French company today in the mail.

I registered for the Summer session on Community development at Concordia university. All over in my calendar it is supposed to be next week. Someone sent me an email mentioning the keynote speech - Make poverty illegal - then I thought wait -- that is supposed to be next Sunday. Then reading the brochure, I realized it is this week. So I scrambled myself to get there. Although I missed a good part of it in the morning but it was fabulous, nonetheless.

Some recommended readings:
Against Forgetting by Carolyn Forche.
Transforming ourselves, transforming the world by Brian Murphy (The presenter of the session).

When the Sun goes down, you can see the stars" - how knowledge blinds us from all other possibilities.

Terror comes from facing the big issue. Or being the private person in public.

Power and force, notion of empowerment individual vs. group.
Private vs. public. According to him there's no dichotomy.

Consciousness is a permanent discomfort.

We deliberately delude ourselves and when we're in silence we allow for the under current to come out and that could be something we experience as madness. However, the revolution, will not be "less" mad. We should embrace the madness - not try to manage or cope.

How to live an authentic life: Authenticity - root comes from author, as in self. In our aspiration, we ask for more in honor of what we already have. This is verifiable in the public domain as solidarity.

What is enough? How much is enough? It lives in the domain of quality and not in the domain of quantity.
At school you're taught that you're not enough.

The way to make change is to change. The verb to change is not transitive, doesn't require an object.
"Make poverty illegal". "Guaranteed annual income".

When we recover our innocence, we can forgive.

Those who drawn are those who cling to the shore.

Conclusion, in times of catastrophy, we must go into the river. and "We are enough".

Time as we know

Yesterday morning, I had this dream that all conventions, specifications that we know about time is going out the window. It actually showed graphically. Earth was holding onto this ring of light called time and that ring got out of the earth like a pearl being extracted from a clam shell. So naturally, I was asking myself what am I to do now?

I forgot about the dream until I was sitting in the Audience and Deepak Chopra spoke about time/space conitinuum and how we are mostly nothing - or lots of spaces around really tiny stuff.

Some gems:
From Zen and the Art of Motorcycle maintenance;
Physical discomfort doesn't mean much if it is not accompanied by mood.

From Deepak event:

We all have at least a million molecules in our body Jesus had in his body.
We all have several million molecules in our body that was in any other living thing a week ago.
A tree is our lungs - because if it doesn't breath, I don't.
Our ancesters - all of us have 2 parents, 4 grand-parents... and if one goes up far enough, you can see that you are a product of millions of great, great... parents, and if one of them wasn't there, you would not be here today.
Catapillar to become a butterfly.
Towards the late stages of a catapillar, it becomes consumptive (as humans are now called consumers). It consumes more than it needs so the body starts to decay. At some point this decay signals the Imagine cells to start grouping in clusters and these clusters of Imagine cells start connecting together.
The cells that are found in the wings of a butterfly can be found in human hearts. This really shows the true purpose of the human heart - to create possibilities, dreams and to be the agent of transformation.

Summer in Montreal

Things are getting hot and humid here. I need to get the Air Conditionner in or I will have sleepless nights all summer long. It is so great to take time to relax, not think, consider what I want to do each day and not having to fit it into a tight schedule.

I walked into the Cathedral bookstore but could not find the Margaret Mary Alacoque's auto biography. I'm intrested in her story of Sacred Heart of Jesus. I have this notion that Jesus doesn't show himself as often as Mary shows herself.

As always Aunt is the walking talking encyclopedia on the matter.
I am shopping around for a driving course and also for colors for my walls.

What have I learned?

Geometry, Economics, Circuits, Algebra, Boundary Valued Problems, Calculus, Linear Algebra, Korean, English, French, Spanish.. these are some of the countless courses and workshops I have taken in my life. I tell everyone there's one course that I took that really made the biggest difference in my life and I use everyday - it is typing class. Aside from that I must say the Landmark courses made the biggest impact in my life. The relationships, distinctions and support are what I can go back to making what I want out of my life possible.

Since the Bermuda - New paradigm for performance, and being turned down for Results job got my brain going full time, even though I'm super lazy in bodily action these days. I am beginning to question everything. What is important to me, what makes me effective and why, what do I take for granted that I have been taking for granted that may need a re-visit and re-examination.

Dreams and coincidences

I was talking to my aunt this morning and described an unusual rosary I found in the St-Teresa's church in Bermuda. My aunt is Teresa and the name is from the same saint - the little flower. Each of the beads has a picture of Mary on one side and a picture of Jesus on the other side.

She tells me that she saw this rosary over 10 years ago in one of her dreams. I could not believe how accurate she was describing it to me.

This is one of her propetic dreams I suppose.
She tells me that I'm to pray to be the instrument of God and not to pray to be successful. It makes total sense to me. I was going to send it to her but I'll borrow it from her for some time.

She reminded me of the time (1973-74) when my dad was missing for over 2 month and we got a telegram from the Inn that she saw him in her dream that day.

Can I use what I have to make a difference?

Terri was saying that even the things she doesn't like about herself gets used to making a difference. I woke up with that memory this morning. Being on the driver's seat requires learning to drive and drive safely and confidently. I'll take this time off to do make that happen in literal and spritual terms.

I remembered the early days when I was so thrilled to be working and making the minimum wage. Now I seek more fulfillment and opportunity to make a difference.

Bermuda

Bermuda was absolutely gorgeous. Although I did not get to dip my toes in that unbelieavable Turquois water once, I was privilleged and honored to meet my teachers who work so hard to make transformation more readily available. I'm moved inspired and awaken to what it means to have this technology available.

No I did not get the job. It took about all of 15 minutes of feeling totally horrible - like warm snake going around in my body then all of a sudden, I got over it. I'm happy we found the perfect candidate.

I talked it over with my mom and my good friend. I am clear that the perfect opportunity will open itself up and I trust myself to recognize it.

I got something handled in terms of trust over the weekend. I'm so proud to be in the presence of the teacher who so affected my life like no other, surrounded by all so intelligent, big-hearted, hard working, well spoken colleagues creating a new paradigm of performance.

LODI

LODI stands for Long Overdue Item. I completed one of those today. I re-upholstered 6 dining room chairs. I've been meaning to do it since we moved to this place 5 years ago. I have bought the fabric, stapler and schotch guard. Today I finished re-upholstering and will do scotch guarding them some time later. But I have an amazing sense of accomplishment.

John went over with me the interview questions and kicked my butt. I now am re-interested in the job and I think I can have a good time at the interview tomorrow.

I found out that the name Grameen Canada has already been registered. I will have to find out if it has been incorporated. I will have to follow up with him when I come back from Burmuda.

Mom's outing

Mom is going out to see her friends from High School. She's dressed up in pink top and red shoes. I forgot that Mother's day is next week so I got her some flowers yesterday.

I heard from Alex -- we can only start speaking in June after his trip from Bangladesh and India. I am supposed to meet with Johanne today.

In the meantime, there were some upsetting news about some relatives in Korea that took some wind out but maybe this is what needs to take place to make a new start. I was concerned that uncle's paper would be screwed up but the lady at the lawyers office by-passed his delinquent behavior so the paper is safe. God must be so busy to take care of all these things so carefully.
Aunt must be exhausted.

One more step

I finished the "Knight in Rusty Armour". It was delightful and very apropos. Thanks to Sybille.
I sent off the 3 page document to Alex. I also got a phone call yesterday at 5:15 p.m. that Results wants to interview me for the National Coordinator position. I was getting all pissy that they weren't calling and now I wonder if they really want me or if it is just a polite, token gesture. I guess I'll find out next week. At least I guess this is saved my face somewhat.

It's all lined up next week. Monday, I'm having a follow-up conversation with Johanne -- just to update her on what's been going on. Then Tuesday I'm hoping I get an answer from Alex for a call with Alex and Cathy. Wednesday is the interview and Thursday I'm off to Burmuda for the meeting of brilliant minds, coming back on the 16th.

Cathy called and said how Alex C is now raising $1M per month thanks to this consultant who is now hired part-time by Results and the technology will be shared on the Leadership day at the Results International Conference. I'm all ears.

Auntie has connected the earphone so what I say to her will not be booming on her speakers. She was wispering because it was like 2 a.m. her time. She read the bit about "Can I will anthing to manifest" She said yes!

New red shoes

I'm ashamed to admit that yes, I bought another pair of red shoes. Not because I need them but they were just so cute and comfortable. Mom also bought a redder pair of swede shoes. I think I'll have a red shoes fashion show later but for now just the latest pair is on display. I found a 4 leaf clover yesterday. It seems that I just willed it to be there. Can I will other things to manifest?

Desire comes with the resources

I meant to earmark the book but I cannot find it. But it goes something like this. If you have a desire, it comes with the resources that is able to fulfill that desire presently. I read that in "The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent". The art of allowing.

This almost sounds like the aspiration thing that my aunt told me yesterday.

Another interesting dream I had -- on April 3rd. I asked for a sign to tell me if handing in the resignation letter was the right thing. And the answer came in a dream. A tall iron gates with vines and mosses and all kinds of leaves were growing on it ( as though they haven't opened in a very long time). And they were slowly opening. And as though the visual messages weren't clear enough I heard the audible message -- The gates are opening up.

So I took it as a sign and had absolutely no problem proceeding with handing in the resignation letter. It also coincides with the message from my aunt -- I need to do it right now because if I'm feeling the way I do - it means god is opening other doors for me.

I know all this sounds like hocus-pocus but these are definite unmistakable communications that I am not to ignore.

One of the guys I met in the MF conference in L.A., left his finance career to jump into career in Micro Credit. He sent me a note saying he'll be visiting Montreal and maybe we could get together and discuss each others adventures. I'm looking forward to his discovery. He says so far people are encouraging and helpful.

Aspiration

My aunt tells me that having a big aspiration is a yet physical reality. Something like what Landmark says. I don't know how she knows these things without taking all those courses. It is like being pregrent - if I have it, then it is bound to come true.

I worked on the proposal - more like project outline. I don't know how it is going to look at the end.

Some of the interesting dreams and visions since January.

Giving birth to a healthy heavy hot baby boy. That was the day I met with Johanne at the very beginning of the sprout conversation for possibility.

I see big Satellite dish spinning and collecting wads of cash stack after stack.

I had a very interesting talk with Denise. I admire her for starting her own business and she looks really good - was surprised to find her on the Dance floor at the Dancefolie on Saturday. She danced like a butterfly. Went for brunch on Sunday. The guy at the breakfast place was rude. Would not give me the table I wanted. We ended up going to Atwater market. It is so different from before - so many new constructions. I realize that no service is better than bad service.

Picture from the oldest Hot dog stand in California and more

Google Talk with Aunt

Finally, auntie and I can talk limitless via internet phone. I can hear her crystal clear as if she was right next to my ear. It was a fluke that her monitor died. Then the original donor of the computer came back with the brand-new computer and it is XP. So then it was within minutes that we could set up the internet phone - I sent her the internet head-phone/microphone earlier in March and did not think It would be useful until now. I can even send her DVD's as well.

Life is amazing. In some ways there are things that are being taken care of beyond what one asks for, within a short time these days. I am guessing that we really have to want strongly enough - as that book says -Ask and it is given.

I got to speak to Cathy. She sounded really positive about what happened with Prof. Yunus.

Next project is to write the 3 page proposal.

Sunnie.

Progress in MC

I was off to LA on Tuesday 18th -- had the conference on 19th and 20th. Took the friday 21st off then the PEX weekend #6 on 22nd and 23rd. It was a long trip to LA. I left home at 12:30 p.m. and arrived at the hotel at 10:30 (1:30 a.m. Eastern time) so took 13 hours total. I met a nice man and we had a good time talking about books, my volunteer work and how I just left work and how he'll be bicycling around in CA for a month.

Wednesday, I got to the conference late and missed most of Prof Yunus's talk. I was mad at myself for that and I had to get off it - talked to myself that all is going to turn out exactly as it should just like when I met Cedza - to accomplish what I came to accomplish. I saw Alex first -- right before the lunch break where he's supposed to talk. I meant to find out how he got the foundation started with 6,000 start up money and he actually offered -- if that is what you want to do he'll be willing to provide some support -- but I needed Prof. Yunus's blessing. Although I did not dare to ask for that amount of positive response, I decided to go all the way. So I went up to Prof. Yunus, and he remembered me from trips to WDC and his trip to Canada. I told him that Alex says I need his blessing to start something like that in Canada and he said "sure no problem". I was a bit stunned. I asked him if we were restricted to where we could disburse -- he said sure if we were to use the name Grameen. I did not ask for it but it seems that was the understanding. So, I'm even more stunned. Alex told me to send him a 3 page proposal and define what we would need. He'll also get me in touch with Spanish and Australian counterparts.
This is still unbelievable.
Friday, Susan, Jungnam and I went to the oldest hot dog stand in CA. Had a giant hot dog and black cherry drink. JN wasn't in good shape so she had to be brought back to the hotel. Susan and I finally went to the Getty Museum. What a modern day cathedral! The view was breathtaking and bought some souvenirs. Too bad my digital camera ran out of batteries.
Saturday -- went to Korean restaurent (2nd time that week).
Sunday -- Last day of the course and sad good byes. But I'm looking forward to Power and Contribution - I'm beginning to believe that a mouth and some language are what it takes to make a difference.

This is Tuesday and I went for blood test at the CLSC and went to lunch with Kim. I am now wondering if I should have her apply for Results position in Ottawa. I'm going to need a partner for the foundation project asap.

Happy Easter!

Friday - Sent off application for the Results job and went singing, we stayed only till 2:30 a.m. The owner of the place, obviously lacking sleep, told me that I made a good decision to leave work and don't start too soon. Take a year off, he told me.

Saturday - went dancing in Laval. I know that doesn't quite sound right but I had a good time. There were lots of good looking young guys and that cannot possibly put me in a bad mood.

Sunday - went for the easter mass at the Notre-Dame basillica. It was packed all around and the choir and the ceremony was very moving. I feel reborn. Then went to Salim and Ambreen's for snack and homework. Amber and friends were very interesting. I found out that "Dubai" is such an amazing place to live and work. They are actually considering living there. All possible luxury is there and only the brand name designer cloths were sold. There must be a great place to raise money. Salim says I should at least take the summer off.

Monday - got all preparation done for trip to L.A. So, I'm all set. I feel relaxed and my blood sugar level seems to level off. I remember my pshichic telling me that I'll have a disease free body. I feel relaxed, free and quiet.

Au Revoir and Hello

The farewell party was a complete success. I was reminded of the good old days. It was fun, moving, sad and exciting all at the same time. I was moved to tears by all the well wishes and tremendous positive energy.

Today is a very sunny and warmer - 9 degrees. John is working on the final touches for my CV. I can see my neibour taking out a hammoc on the balcony.

The responses to the survey questions for Vision excercise leading into the strategic planning was a real eye opener. It seems there are so much resources, heart and soul within our groups.

I'm so looking forward to allow and lead the new and innovative projects and programs.

Last day

Went for lunch with a kindred spirit. He was the first to receive me when I started 7 years ago. I figured out the Stock option thing so I am glad. I think I'm pretty complete. I look forward to the trip next week. I look forward to sending off my CV to Results and I look forward to waking up creating the day rather then just react to what's coming at me.

Everyone is so pleasant all of a sudden. I feel relaxed, blessed, calm and joyful.

Total silence

It's silent. I have no work to do so I compiled the responses from a survey for Results. The answers were totally amazing. I could see there are so many things we could do out of that excercise. I'm blessed to have this opportunity regroup and recharge myself. I had a sad day yesterday with some sweet messages from coworkers from near and far.

Dinner with Ileana was very chaotic. Chinese opera karaoke and people shouting as usual and we were engaged in a very interesting topic.

It is so amazing to be able to sit and talk with someone about whatever pops in to your head. Thank you god for making me alive at this time.

Am I dreaming?

I had a really good dream yesterday morning but I have to save it for 3 days to not jinx it. My aunt received the skirt/pillowcases/flanges I sent her. She says that "loud" thing about her skirt. Mom seems a bit confronted. I can understand that. She's worried I'll be all stressed out and take it out on her?

I'll have to finish my CV this weekend anyways. John -- my new angel is supporting me through this. I am surprised that he is so willing and thoughtful. Did something change in me? I suppose. Francois tells me that I'm like a sunshine these days.

I just need to trust myself as Christine says. And I do -- it's just sometimes I forget that I do.

Lord, I'm ready to receive your blessings in short order with lots of great opportunity coming to me with so many wonderful projects and financial opportunities. I know I'm meant to make a huge difference and I'm already doing so. I am for eradication of suffering and receiving unimaginable amount of joy and sharing them in bountiful way.

New life new phones?

I have 2 new phones. My desktop phone is now a Cisco model with "Color" monitor. However it'll be only mine for next 4 days. I have a new cell phone - mine only because I'll be letting go of the cell phone given to me by the company. I'm leaving work of last 7 years to investigate what it is that I really want to do for the next 20 years or so.

I have determined that what I'm doing now isn't what I want to do for next 20 years or next any time. I'm reminded of the Alchemist - who is in search of his fortune that was foretold by his dream.

I am in search of my fortune and happiness foretold by my dreams. I'm so incredibly lucky to have family and friends who are supporting this new endeavor so full heartedly.

I'm already happy that I'm taking one step after another going towards that, yet not knowing all the details.

I'm tuning into my being. I decline any opportunities that doesn't seem right to me. For example, this new cell phone -- I really did not like the salesman last time I walked in. So I walked out and this time, what an amazing service. He was professional, attractive, attentive and gave me all I wanted in a short time plus a very pleasant smile.

I'm looking forward to my sabbatical -- the opportunity create my life as an artist would create a piece of art. Hmm....Yummy.