Thursday, April 27, 2006

Google Talk with Aunt

Finally, auntie and I can talk limitless via internet phone. I can hear her crystal clear as if she was right next to my ear. It was a fluke that her monitor died. Then the original donor of the computer came back with the brand-new computer and it is XP. So then it was within minutes that we could set up the internet phone - I sent her the internet head-phone/microphone earlier in March and did not think It would be useful until now. I can even send her DVD's as well.

Life is amazing. In some ways there are things that are being taken care of beyond what one asks for, within a short time these days. I am guessing that we really have to want strongly enough - as that book says -Ask and it is given.

I got to speak to Cathy. She sounded really positive about what happened with Prof. Yunus.

Next project is to write the 3 page proposal.

Sunnie.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Progress in MC

I was off to LA on Tuesday 18th -- had the conference on 19th and 20th. Took the friday 21st off then the PEX weekend #6 on 22nd and 23rd. It was a long trip to LA. I left home at 12:30 p.m. and arrived at the hotel at 10:30 (1:30 a.m. Eastern time) so took 13 hours total. I met a nice man and we had a good time talking about books, my volunteer work and how I just left work and how he'll be bicycling around in CA for a month.

Wednesday, I got to the conference late and missed most of Prof Yunus's talk. I was mad at myself for that and I had to get off it - talked to myself that all is going to turn out exactly as it should just like when I met Cedza - to accomplish what I came to accomplish. I saw Alex first -- right before the lunch break where he's supposed to talk. I meant to find out how he got the foundation started with 6,000 start up money and he actually offered -- if that is what you want to do he'll be willing to provide some support -- but I needed Prof. Yunus's blessing. Although I did not dare to ask for that amount of positive response, I decided to go all the way. So I went up to Prof. Yunus, and he remembered me from trips to WDC and his trip to Canada. I told him that Alex says I need his blessing to start something like that in Canada and he said "sure no problem". I was a bit stunned. I asked him if we were restricted to where we could disburse -- he said sure if we were to use the name Grameen. I did not ask for it but it seems that was the understanding. So, I'm even more stunned. Alex told me to send him a 3 page proposal and define what we would need. He'll also get me in touch with Spanish and Australian counterparts.
This is still unbelievable.
Friday, Susan, Jungnam and I went to the oldest hot dog stand in CA. Had a giant hot dog and black cherry drink. JN wasn't in good shape so she had to be brought back to the hotel. Susan and I finally went to the Getty Museum. What a modern day cathedral! The view was breathtaking and bought some souvenirs. Too bad my digital camera ran out of batteries.
Saturday -- went to Korean restaurent (2nd time that week).
Sunday -- Last day of the course and sad good byes. But I'm looking forward to Power and Contribution - I'm beginning to believe that a mouth and some language are what it takes to make a difference.

This is Tuesday and I went for blood test at the CLSC and went to lunch with Kim. I am now wondering if I should have her apply for Results position in Ottawa. I'm going to need a partner for the foundation project asap.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Happy Easter!

Friday - Sent off application for the Results job and went singing, we stayed only till 2:30 a.m. The owner of the place, obviously lacking sleep, told me that I made a good decision to leave work and don't start too soon. Take a year off, he told me.

Saturday - went dancing in Laval. I know that doesn't quite sound right but I had a good time. There were lots of good looking young guys and that cannot possibly put me in a bad mood.

Sunday - went for the easter mass at the Notre-Dame basillica. It was packed all around and the choir and the ceremony was very moving. I feel reborn. Then went to Salim and Ambreen's for snack and homework. Amber and friends were very interesting. I found out that "Dubai" is such an amazing place to live and work. They are actually considering living there. All possible luxury is there and only the brand name designer cloths were sold. There must be a great place to raise money. Salim says I should at least take the summer off.

Monday - got all preparation done for trip to L.A. So, I'm all set. I feel relaxed and my blood sugar level seems to level off. I remember my pshichic telling me that I'll have a disease free body. I feel relaxed, free and quiet.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Au Revoir and Hello

The farewell party was a complete success. I was reminded of the good old days. It was fun, moving, sad and exciting all at the same time. I was moved to tears by all the well wishes and tremendous positive energy.

Today is a very sunny and warmer - 9 degrees. John is working on the final touches for my CV. I can see my neibour taking out a hammoc on the balcony.

The responses to the survey questions for Vision excercise leading into the strategic planning was a real eye opener. It seems there are so much resources, heart and soul within our groups.

I'm so looking forward to allow and lead the new and innovative projects and programs.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Last day

Went for lunch with a kindred spirit. He was the first to receive me when I started 7 years ago. I figured out the Stock option thing so I am glad. I think I'm pretty complete. I look forward to the trip next week. I look forward to sending off my CV to Results and I look forward to waking up creating the day rather then just react to what's coming at me.

Everyone is so pleasant all of a sudden. I feel relaxed, blessed, calm and joyful.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Total silence

It's silent. I have no work to do so I compiled the responses from a survey for Results. The answers were totally amazing. I could see there are so many things we could do out of that excercise. I'm blessed to have this opportunity regroup and recharge myself. I had a sad day yesterday with some sweet messages from coworkers from near and far.

Dinner with Ileana was very chaotic. Chinese opera karaoke and people shouting as usual and we were engaged in a very interesting topic.

It is so amazing to be able to sit and talk with someone about whatever pops in to your head. Thank you god for making me alive at this time.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Am I dreaming?

I had a really good dream yesterday morning but I have to save it for 3 days to not jinx it. My aunt received the skirt/pillowcases/flanges I sent her. She says that "loud" thing about her skirt. Mom seems a bit confronted. I can understand that. She's worried I'll be all stressed out and take it out on her?

I'll have to finish my CV this weekend anyways. John -- my new angel is supporting me through this. I am surprised that he is so willing and thoughtful. Did something change in me? I suppose. Francois tells me that I'm like a sunshine these days.

I just need to trust myself as Christine says. And I do -- it's just sometimes I forget that I do.

Lord, I'm ready to receive your blessings in short order with lots of great opportunity coming to me with so many wonderful projects and financial opportunities. I know I'm meant to make a huge difference and I'm already doing so. I am for eradication of suffering and receiving unimaginable amount of joy and sharing them in bountiful way.

Monday, April 10, 2006

New life new phones?

I have 2 new phones. My desktop phone is now a Cisco model with "Color" monitor. However it'll be only mine for next 4 days. I have a new cell phone - mine only because I'll be letting go of the cell phone given to me by the company. I'm leaving work of last 7 years to investigate what it is that I really want to do for the next 20 years or so.

I have determined that what I'm doing now isn't what I want to do for next 20 years or next any time. I'm reminded of the Alchemist - who is in search of his fortune that was foretold by his dream.

I am in search of my fortune and happiness foretold by my dreams. I'm so incredibly lucky to have family and friends who are supporting this new endeavor so full heartedly.

I'm already happy that I'm taking one step after another going towards that, yet not knowing all the details.

I'm tuning into my being. I decline any opportunities that doesn't seem right to me. For example, this new cell phone -- I really did not like the salesman last time I walked in. So I walked out and this time, what an amazing service. He was professional, attractive, attentive and gave me all I wanted in a short time plus a very pleasant smile.

I'm looking forward to my sabbatical -- the opportunity create my life as an artist would create a piece of art. Hmm....Yummy.