Busy day

Demand for me is coming from all directions. I met with 2 other accomplished strong willed women for brunch. They are masters in their domain and as we agree and disagree I can see that gods in us are very much alive and expressive.

Then I had a call with the McGill people about the workshop this Saturday. It came together rather interestingly.

Then a friend called to see if I was willing to show her some yoga movements. Then another friend called to see if I can be with her to go to the small claims court for her dispute with her dentist.

Then I had a fundraiser planning call.

Ballet class was great - after all this, but I must be careful with my weak knee.

This dark Halloween night is turning out to be not as sleepy as other nights.

Choosing

I had one of the most powerful excercises done in my seminar and it is all about choosing. I had that happen when I did the Forum - and chose my Dad exactly as he is and exactly as he was not and our relationship completely shifted then. It was truly miraculous when that happened. In my seminar, we were to write down all that we haven't chosen in our lives and choose all each day. I don't know if that is why but this time, we are putting together the Fundraiser at the last minute and so far - no struggle and effort. No making wrong. My unreasonable request to be in daily communication with the 2 other people got accepted without a peep.

So I'm excited without being nervouse and crazy. It may be also that I let that go.

I'm in demand, from within and from outside - will be doing a workshop at McGill, Learning for sustainable future. Then I'm in the Montreal Millenium Conference. Then off the Power and Contribution in SF then off to Halifax from there. Then I'm attending a conference for tax consultant for NGO for transferring money outside of Canada.

New possibility

I had an interview this morning. It was interesting and the people I met seemed earnest and serious. I can see that there's definite mood shift in me. I don't have so much angst and nervousness.

I love the seminar I'm in - Living passionately and bringing the love of the game to everything we do. It just gives me calmness and possibility without any change in circumstances.

It would be great to work and be passionate about my work again.

Dreams

I had a dream that I took a thorn (unusual shape and size) out of my body. It was thick and had a color and texture of a red brick but shaped like a branch with some motif on it. It was painful to take it out but felt really good once it was out.

I also had a dream that I moved into a new house. Brand-new freshly painted and was very bright.

This is something - not really a dream but I saw and felt it while meditating in my yoga class. I have been given this huge peach, it was so big that I could not put my arms around it.

I also had a dream that I started to work for OZ.

Now - in a live state, my new unlikely friend turns out to have so much in common with me. Grandma whose husband is in Sudan being an agricultural consultant. She is actually the first person to let me know that Prof. Yunus was awared the Nobel Peace Prize. I'll have to laminate the picture I took with him.

Talking with 5 women

I had a dinner/meeting with 5 women. 3 I know well and 2 I know very little. It turned out to be most interesting and it is incredible how people with like mind find each other. I'm a believer in the law of attraction.

I heard the good news that Prof. Mohammad Yunus won the Nobel Peace Prize. When my grandma heard the news she thought it wasn't fair that he got something and I did not get anything - another falling down from my chair laughing moment.

I went to lunch and yoga class with my old and dearest friend. We never seem to have enough time to say everything - thank god for Skype so that we can catch up whenever.

I'm including some pictures from the Sushi Restaurent aquarium - Nemo and Dory.

Harvest Moon

I must have gotton off it. I got the cheque in the mail - one I thought I'd have to wait till november. So Mom and I went out to celebrate. Back in Korea, the whole family got together to celebrate the Choo Suk - Korean equivalent of Thanksgiving - they happened to coincide this year. I have so much to be thankful for. From the movie Secret, I started listing the names of the people I feel grateful for having in my life and so far I'm at 94.
I took 2 pictures of the Harvest moon - it looked sublime.

Venise-en-Quebec

Mom wanted to get away to see the fall trees - and she's not keen on walking a lot. On Thursday a friend of mine informed me that she's renting a cottage by a lake and she was willing to bring us back an forth. I always wanted to have a cottage by water and wanted to know what it would be like to live in one so I got mom to agree and invited a couple of friends - the one who came ended up being charge of all 7 meals. The lake was fabulous. I got to see the sunny day and a rainy, windy day and water looked very different. We ended up playing 2 rounds of Scrabbles (Mom did quite well), 2 rounds of French version of Life (Getting married, having kids, buying house, losing money and facing other life obstacles etc.). And watched 3 movies. Food was also a major source of preoccupation.

Kindered Spirits

I met with 2 people who are just as passionate about creating new world of health, education and equity. (I learned from watching " The Secret" the movie - that it is better to be for something than against something). The movie was so great - I never knew that the technology existed to pay and watch a movie on line.

Manon will go to Tanzania to work with the orphans there. Jacques will bring solar oven to dry fruits so that they can start their own small business. I'm getting clearer - I want to be part of the task force to enroll 2.2 M people to give 1$/day till the Micro Finance becomes available to all. I was resigned about finding billionaires. However I recently heard of 2 people who personally know a billionair and some one who knows of one.

I was so happy to meet people who are re-arranging their life/lifestyle to make a maximum difference and take their dreams off the shelf and running with them.

Long overdue evening out dancing

I found out there's something I'm good at. Twist. I was out with 4 fabulous gals at a Freddie James - Singer/dancer/comedian extraordinaire concert. Of all the Barbie and Paris look-alike gals, who does Freddie pick to do a Twist demo on the stage? Me! It was surprising but I thought heck I enjoy dancing and who cares who's watching. As I was dancing, Freddie's eyes were getting bigger and bigger. And later at the ladies, gals lining up all gave me smiles and taps on my shoulder saying my twist was "really good". Too bad no camera or video camera was rolling. Eliz was saying "You should have seen yourself".

So I became instant celebrity for about 5 minutes. It was fun. Maybe I can add that on my CV.
This washed away some of the stress and pissy mood I was in. So today is a new day with no mistakes in it - famous line from Anne of Green Gables.

Back to sabbatical

It was intense 1 week but is over. John was right. It seems they won't budge until I do a blow out. It was an interesting experience anyways. Including fetching copper wire for an antenna and looking for elastic bands to keep the device together - real high tech stuff.

There's a new addition for my green pottery collection - I got them from SF. Once I got them in SF but gave away as a gift and I thought I should have gotton more. The persimmon things. So I was happy to track down in SF this time.

Power and Contribution and new job

Power and contribution was in some ways brutal but most humbling and effective. The level of honesty was unbelievable and only so that we can start a strong and clean foundation of integrity. I've been depressed about this course. This course is about making the difference in the world, creating the impossible promise and fulfilling them. Obviously I'm not the right person. As it turns out - all the people in the course were going through some degree of this despair. Some were too indifferent to even notice the dispair. But at some point this promise will take over our lives and become the context for all we do. I got a massive headache - must have been a giant identity attack.

SF was beautiful - especially the hotel. I also had an honor of attending an unexpected birthday party of a friend and 50 of his close family members - it was overwhelming but I could see they all so loved each other.

Busy Events - Happy ones

Yesterday, after 5 months the collection for the soccer uniform was completed. This was only done in Pierrefonds but maybe next year if there's more demand and if shipping cost can be donated, we could do Montreal-wide collection.

Today, I was at a press conference for the Millenium Promises by the City of Montreal. Yes I was very skeptical but I was really surprised by the leadership plus all the celeb muscles who showed up there. I also got to see the friend with the looooong poney tail - who went Hey it's da sunnie - on top of her lungs in the company of Belinda Stronach, Mayor Tremblay, Nathalie Simard, Patrick Huard and oodles of journalists swarming all over the place.

They are putting on a big conference on Nov 9th with Prez Clinton, Jeff Sachs, Craig Keilburger and several people to let the ordinary people know of the progress of MDG's and to launch Bednet project and inviting Corporations and NGOS as well as ordinary citizens (3000 people).

I got to shake hands with the Organizer, Daniel Germain - Founder of "Club des petits dejeuners du Quebec", the back bone and the shaker of the bold project.

Mayor was speaking about projects to join twin cities in all aspects of development, with the World Bank.

Anyways, I was really interested to see the new momentum of the MDG's power that infiltrated the Quebec's Psyche.

Why aren't they calling me?????

Well I have been waiting for the people to call me about the job where I had 4 interviews (1 phone 3 face-to-face). Apparently it is normal to do 5-6 interviews these days. As one of my old co-worker used to say "what a gal to do?"

In the meantime, I am continuing my yoga classes and found I lost another pound this morning. Plus, I'm learning the history of Korea. The culture, and discipline that was there before Buddism arrived. It is fascinating. I know so little but the education system also suppressed that part of history in general in Korea.

I like feeling the energy between my hands - this means my mind is calm enough to focus on the present rather than regretting the past and worrying about the future.

The long lost friend was telling me how she got to the top of the corporate ladder and then she also decided to quit. She did not like the fact that she had to hand over her life to the company and the demand of young kids, aging mother and career was too much and she felt completely cornered. She quit. I'm sure that took a lot of courage. She then started to buy properties so she basically manages properties and makes more money now then ever before - and she says she made good money. Her husband also left his damanding position and took on less demanding role. They are wise and lucky I must say.

There's another funny granma story. She doesn't want to use the chamber pot in front of TV. Why? because she's concerned that people in TV are watching her. I almost fell from my chair when I heard it, laughing hysterically.

Money bug and Boston trip

Auntie keeps assuring me that the money bug is staying put with her. Everytime she opens the sliding door it appears. So things are looking good.

Boston trip was fabulous. I went to the Fogg museum, the Science Museum, The Peabody museum and of course the Museum of Fine Arts.

Plus we had some fabulous meals, went sailing one afternoon and were on the swan boat.

Friday - arriving and dinner at China town - watched Gendarme à New York but fell asleep before finishing the movie.

Saturday - Fogg art museum, Lunch, Sailing, Profiterol and Cappucino then an excellent 3 course meal at this tiny Bistro -but this was the Restaurent week so they had special menu.

Sunday - Had breakfast with Alan then explored on my own. Went through Prudential, Boyleston shopping mall. Then to the Science Museum where they display real human bodies http://www.mos.org/bodyworlds This was very interesting and not as scary as I thougt.

Jenny and Alan had 20 + guests for BBQ feast. Then Jenny had to work and I finished the Portuguese Irregular Verbs. It was very funny.

Monday - Went for "American in Paris" exibit at the Museum of fine arts then off to Peabody museum for Pictures from Pusan during the Korean War. Since this museum was connected to the Natural History Museum I got to see the Glass Flowers as well. Went to Korean Galbi dinner at Koreana.

Tuesday came back to Montreal with Jenny and Wednes day a.m. I had another interview. Thursday - we, Jenny, Rosalba and I have found Eva - who we've been looking for last 3 years. It's been a productive week.

Visiting Jenny - in my dream + Dahn Goon history

In my dream, I was visiting Jenny. It was somewhere I was supposed to dress up - like a fancy party. I am also supposed to pack a swim suit because there's a facility where we could go for a swim. This is a recurring dream - about some of us going for a swim. I even remember this place where there's a 3 layers of swimming pools that I have seen in my other previous dreams.

I am just making sure I packed all the right things and also making sure I'm not an embarrassment because of my slowness. I guess that's been my concern all my life trying to catch up but never being able to.

In my life - in the awake state, I got this book as a gift from the Dahn Yoga place. In it, it talks about the ancient Korean history and how important it is for us to learn that history since as the story of Abraham and Isaac, Kain and Abel, Adam and Eve, it is critical for us to understand the history/myth of that life correctly as the philosophical and moral back bone of our lives.

I only know that my maternal great-grand father was the last head of the original Korean religion called Dae Jong Gyo (The great religion). The book was about the root of our history and religion of the Korean people. It was inspiring, made much sense. However I'm not too convinced that having 100 million people practicing Dan Hak will really bring about the all harmonious world. Then again it may not be about fixing the world but rather awakening and providing opportunities for those people to make a difference.

But I am certainly glad to find that what my great-grand father was teaching is on the revival after 2000 years of sleep and oblivion.

More dreams

I had a dream that Aunt and I are moving into a house that needs a lot of work but thankfully the guys - who are renting it to us are willing to fix it to our specification.

I also had a dream where I'm folding papers next to Bill Gates. He and I are doing the same task of folding papers. And this other guy is telling me that I can have my own Black Berry device - and I'm thinking, I haven't been hired and they want me to have a device already?

I also had this recurring theme in one of my other dreams - where I know I have a university degree but somehow I ended up back in high school and although it is something I already learned I'm having a hard time adjusting and relearning. This time finally someone is telling me that I no longer have to re-learn since I already graduated and have a higher education.

This was a busy morning.

More dreams

I had two interesting dreams lately. One was that I received a gift of jewelry - bracelet with Amethyst in the middle like an eye then some colorless -chrystals on either side. I took it but wasn't sure If this meant more pay back. In my dream I wondered if this was a good thing or not.

Another dream was that there's a warning that there's a racoon on the loose who is destroying the pumpkin leaves. I saw that he was devouring them but what I was seeing was a giant orange pumpkin that is hung and I was to protect it from the racoon.

Both seem like a good omen - jewels and giant orange pumpkin.

Back to sabbatical

I'm done with a task that took 54 hours to complete - it was estimated to be about 16 hours would be enough. In general, it took about 3 hours per month so I don't feel I was a slug.

Sorting/attaching to the right statements/entering in the computer.

Now I'm waiting to hear from this nice company and applied to another tech place a good friend of mine gave me the lead for. Also this Anthony Hopkins look-alike person called me - from England. He was visiting his parents so it took a while for him to call me. He sounds good and we'll meet next week some time.

The temperature shot down and I wonder if this is the beginning of the end of the summer -- sigh. I want to go to see Jenny in Boston.

Heck I need to study for my driving theory test next week.

Work and Play

As I have been somewhat working and looking into going back to work full time, I wonder what I've been doing with all of my free time.

Auntie's being the super human as usual. In fact, she sent me and mom summer shirts and excercise pants. She tells me that she's seen money bugs in numerous occasions and it should be a good luck sign for me. I believe her.

I went to St-Lazarre and spent the afternoon meditating by the pool side. It was just fabulous.

Another wonderful summer weekend is over and a few more in store. Must plan carefully.

Heavenly weekend

I learnt that Auntie's situation is somewhat controlled with the tenant and there's been some kind of equilibrium reached. His bullying found its limits with the solidarity of women friends as well. I'm forever grateful and admire the courage and strength of auntie.

Friday evening: unbelievable Karaoke session - with so much gusto, variety and talent. It was so satisfying.

Saturday evening: unbelievable Jazz ballet performance at the parc. The music, choreography and the surrounding scenary all were just amazing. The fountain changed the color once in a while and it was just the perfect summer night performance, sexy, romantic, humourous and original. The mango, strawberry, pineable hot pepper ice cream was just wonderful. But I realize I miss Adam and two other friends who moved away. I wonder if that's why the area of my heart chakra hurts.

Sunday: went for amazing brunch and went for a walk on Mt St. Bruno. We got to meet a turtle size of a mid-size frying pan. It was a surprise. Apprently it is a good omen. I also found a 4 leaved clover - I started to think I was losing touch.

So far, this has been an excellent weekend.