Summer in Montreal

Things are getting hot and humid here. I need to get the Air Conditionner in or I will have sleepless nights all summer long. It is so great to take time to relax, not think, consider what I want to do each day and not having to fit it into a tight schedule.

I walked into the Cathedral bookstore but could not find the Margaret Mary Alacoque's auto biography. I'm intrested in her story of Sacred Heart of Jesus. I have this notion that Jesus doesn't show himself as often as Mary shows herself.

As always Aunt is the walking talking encyclopedia on the matter.
I am shopping around for a driving course and also for colors for my walls.

What have I learned?

Geometry, Economics, Circuits, Algebra, Boundary Valued Problems, Calculus, Linear Algebra, Korean, English, French, Spanish.. these are some of the countless courses and workshops I have taken in my life. I tell everyone there's one course that I took that really made the biggest difference in my life and I use everyday - it is typing class. Aside from that I must say the Landmark courses made the biggest impact in my life. The relationships, distinctions and support are what I can go back to making what I want out of my life possible.

Since the Bermuda - New paradigm for performance, and being turned down for Results job got my brain going full time, even though I'm super lazy in bodily action these days. I am beginning to question everything. What is important to me, what makes me effective and why, what do I take for granted that I have been taking for granted that may need a re-visit and re-examination.

Dreams and coincidences

I was talking to my aunt this morning and described an unusual rosary I found in the St-Teresa's church in Bermuda. My aunt is Teresa and the name is from the same saint - the little flower. Each of the beads has a picture of Mary on one side and a picture of Jesus on the other side.

She tells me that she saw this rosary over 10 years ago in one of her dreams. I could not believe how accurate she was describing it to me.

This is one of her propetic dreams I suppose.
She tells me that I'm to pray to be the instrument of God and not to pray to be successful. It makes total sense to me. I was going to send it to her but I'll borrow it from her for some time.

She reminded me of the time (1973-74) when my dad was missing for over 2 month and we got a telegram from the Inn that she saw him in her dream that day.

Can I use what I have to make a difference?

Terri was saying that even the things she doesn't like about herself gets used to making a difference. I woke up with that memory this morning. Being on the driver's seat requires learning to drive and drive safely and confidently. I'll take this time off to do make that happen in literal and spritual terms.

I remembered the early days when I was so thrilled to be working and making the minimum wage. Now I seek more fulfillment and opportunity to make a difference.

Bermuda

Bermuda was absolutely gorgeous. Although I did not get to dip my toes in that unbelieavable Turquois water once, I was privilleged and honored to meet my teachers who work so hard to make transformation more readily available. I'm moved inspired and awaken to what it means to have this technology available.

No I did not get the job. It took about all of 15 minutes of feeling totally horrible - like warm snake going around in my body then all of a sudden, I got over it. I'm happy we found the perfect candidate.

I talked it over with my mom and my good friend. I am clear that the perfect opportunity will open itself up and I trust myself to recognize it.

I got something handled in terms of trust over the weekend. I'm so proud to be in the presence of the teacher who so affected my life like no other, surrounded by all so intelligent, big-hearted, hard working, well spoken colleagues creating a new paradigm of performance.

LODI

LODI stands for Long Overdue Item. I completed one of those today. I re-upholstered 6 dining room chairs. I've been meaning to do it since we moved to this place 5 years ago. I have bought the fabric, stapler and schotch guard. Today I finished re-upholstering and will do scotch guarding them some time later. But I have an amazing sense of accomplishment.

John went over with me the interview questions and kicked my butt. I now am re-interested in the job and I think I can have a good time at the interview tomorrow.

I found out that the name Grameen Canada has already been registered. I will have to find out if it has been incorporated. I will have to follow up with him when I come back from Burmuda.

Mom's outing

Mom is going out to see her friends from High School. She's dressed up in pink top and red shoes. I forgot that Mother's day is next week so I got her some flowers yesterday.

I heard from Alex -- we can only start speaking in June after his trip from Bangladesh and India. I am supposed to meet with Johanne today.

In the meantime, there were some upsetting news about some relatives in Korea that took some wind out but maybe this is what needs to take place to make a new start. I was concerned that uncle's paper would be screwed up but the lady at the lawyers office by-passed his delinquent behavior so the paper is safe. God must be so busy to take care of all these things so carefully.
Aunt must be exhausted.

One more step

I finished the "Knight in Rusty Armour". It was delightful and very apropos. Thanks to Sybille.
I sent off the 3 page document to Alex. I also got a phone call yesterday at 5:15 p.m. that Results wants to interview me for the National Coordinator position. I was getting all pissy that they weren't calling and now I wonder if they really want me or if it is just a polite, token gesture. I guess I'll find out next week. At least I guess this is saved my face somewhat.

It's all lined up next week. Monday, I'm having a follow-up conversation with Johanne -- just to update her on what's been going on. Then Tuesday I'm hoping I get an answer from Alex for a call with Alex and Cathy. Wednesday is the interview and Thursday I'm off to Burmuda for the meeting of brilliant minds, coming back on the 16th.

Cathy called and said how Alex C is now raising $1M per month thanks to this consultant who is now hired part-time by Results and the technology will be shared on the Leadership day at the Results International Conference. I'm all ears.

Auntie has connected the earphone so what I say to her will not be booming on her speakers. She was wispering because it was like 2 a.m. her time. She read the bit about "Can I will anthing to manifest" She said yes!

New red shoes

I'm ashamed to admit that yes, I bought another pair of red shoes. Not because I need them but they were just so cute and comfortable. Mom also bought a redder pair of swede shoes. I think I'll have a red shoes fashion show later but for now just the latest pair is on display. I found a 4 leaf clover yesterday. It seems that I just willed it to be there. Can I will other things to manifest?

Desire comes with the resources

I meant to earmark the book but I cannot find it. But it goes something like this. If you have a desire, it comes with the resources that is able to fulfill that desire presently. I read that in "The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent". The art of allowing.

This almost sounds like the aspiration thing that my aunt told me yesterday.

Another interesting dream I had -- on April 3rd. I asked for a sign to tell me if handing in the resignation letter was the right thing. And the answer came in a dream. A tall iron gates with vines and mosses and all kinds of leaves were growing on it ( as though they haven't opened in a very long time). And they were slowly opening. And as though the visual messages weren't clear enough I heard the audible message -- The gates are opening up.

So I took it as a sign and had absolutely no problem proceeding with handing in the resignation letter. It also coincides with the message from my aunt -- I need to do it right now because if I'm feeling the way I do - it means god is opening other doors for me.

I know all this sounds like hocus-pocus but these are definite unmistakable communications that I am not to ignore.

One of the guys I met in the MF conference in L.A., left his finance career to jump into career in Micro Credit. He sent me a note saying he'll be visiting Montreal and maybe we could get together and discuss each others adventures. I'm looking forward to his discovery. He says so far people are encouraging and helpful.

Aspiration

My aunt tells me that having a big aspiration is a yet physical reality. Something like what Landmark says. I don't know how she knows these things without taking all those courses. It is like being pregrent - if I have it, then it is bound to come true.

I worked on the proposal - more like project outline. I don't know how it is going to look at the end.

Some of the interesting dreams and visions since January.

Giving birth to a healthy heavy hot baby boy. That was the day I met with Johanne at the very beginning of the sprout conversation for possibility.

I see big Satellite dish spinning and collecting wads of cash stack after stack.

I had a very interesting talk with Denise. I admire her for starting her own business and she looks really good - was surprised to find her on the Dance floor at the Dancefolie on Saturday. She danced like a butterfly. Went for brunch on Sunday. The guy at the breakfast place was rude. Would not give me the table I wanted. We ended up going to Atwater market. It is so different from before - so many new constructions. I realize that no service is better than bad service.